has been quite a while since i update my blog. Don't miss me too much. teehee
i have been thinking for quite a while now. what to write in my blog so that i'll attract you readers out there. i end up with none. zero idea. so now i end up writing everything so randomly hoping that the idea will come out as i'm typing them out.
2 days ago. i found out that the guy i like already have a girlfriend. i was quite surprise, upset, angry and a little disbelieve. how can he have a girlfriend when i seldom see him with any girls. but then, his looks makes me think twice about it.
'of course he have a girlfriend.. how can a guy like him not have one. that'll be weirder..'
so it took me few hours to put myself back to reality and face the fact. the minute after, i have made my decision to just go with the flow. i am not going to find myself a boyfriend through internet, i am not going to crawl to any guy and ask them in desperate way for them to be my boyfriend, and i am surely will not be upset of being a single lady.
if you all noticed, i'm typing with a full sentences and words. it's going to be my habit from now on. i might use informal word when i feel like it. :)
exam will be coming soon.
A2.
have i mentioned what subject and which course i'm currently taking?
that will be A level in Law course. I'm taking three subjects which are Sociology, Mathematics, and Law of course.
of this three subjects, i'm currently worried about all of them. i seem to have no faith in myself nowadays. i feel so low and unmotivated. (hope my mom wont read this, i dont want her to worry bout me. the fact that she likes to stalk me cant be help. lol) i dont even have faith in my favourite subject. it seems that every time i try to focus on one subject, i get distracted to another cause i feel like i could not manage everything on time. i'm scared that i'll be a disappointment for my family.
i come to a decision to just give my best shot and find ways to overcome this unnecessary thoughts and just tawakal to God.
this brings me to another subject, my religion and my prayers.
i come to think that all my lacking are because of myself for not being active in doing my job as a muslimah. God knows what i'd done and i am ashamed of myself. lacked of prayers is one of them. my brother gave me a lot of motivation so that i become not only a better person as an individual but also a better slave in God's eyes. i will try my best in this too. i don't want to be a step backward anymore. :)
this probably the most boring blog u ever read in your entire life, but if u manage to read it to the end, i'm most grateful. thank you for reading my whine.
