thank you..

i'm not being bias towards all my other best friends..
its just that today i'm going to talk about my greatest and longest best friend i have in my life...

NURUL FATHNIE BINTI RUSTAM.


we've been friends for more than half a decade..
7 years and still counting..

what about us that made our relationship special?
we started our relationship with hatred..
she hated me..
I hated me...
i was snobbish, so i heard..
the only people i wanted to be friend with are people from my class..
the coincidentally we entered the same club..
geography & history club..
there was a welcome event for newcomers..
each people was separated with their own group and she happened to be in mine.
and from there, we got to know about each other...

in friendship, there was always argument between us,
there's always things that doesn't look right in our eyes..

she's a pro in playing badminton..
so we entered a badminton competition for our school,
teacher pared me with her,
we lost because of me.. haha
I SUCK...
and she ends up crying and didn't talk to me for quite a while... hahahhahaha

there's times when we argue and it was my fault and i don't want to apologize..
she still talks to me after..
i hope she knows how happy i was..
i hope she knows how regretful i was not being able to lower my ego and talked to her and say that i'm really sorry..

oh! she have an ANT voice... ;p

we always share everything..
ALWAYS..
even if i try to hide them,
i guess my mouth just slip it away...
mouth got use to her..

what's funny was that we got immune to each other to the point that some irritating things doesn't bother us anymore..
i love winning and she just let me wins though she knows i was obviously WRONG...
what came to my mind went to hers first...
we all knows her for her food craving and must satisfy them or else she'll become a hulk.. NO JOKE.
she got her own fashion sense and it's really fun to watch.. :)

so why am i saying thank you?
because i'm thankful that she want to be my friend..
i'm thankful for the time that we shared together..
i'm thankful for meeting a sweet girl like her...
i'm thankful that she could stand me for my attitude and my whine...
i'm thankful for all her laugh to my not so funny jokes...
and for most...

I'M THANKFUL FOR THE HIJJAB/SCARF..
I'M THANKFUL FOR THE BOOK..
I'M THANKFUL FOR THE VERY INSPIRING AND SUPPORTING NOTE..(thinking whether should i or should i not post the note content..hurm... still thinking...)
I'M THANKFUL THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO SUPPORT ME TO THE END...

THANK YOU FATH...
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY GIRLFRIEND, MY BEST FRIEND, MY BEST FRIENAMY, MY SISTER AND MY EVERYTHING...

i love you... to the end...
my prayer are always will be with you sweetheart...
:) dapat banyak pahala la kau tue...
bgs la.. <3

forever and always will be my best friend.. <3

they live all their life just for us..

i'm sure in every family, there's always argument between parents and child, right?

there's always something or some part of their talk that we disagree about..

whenever they give advises that might sound a little harsh or hurtful but its the truth, we looked the other way and make those irritated face...

whenever they say something, we talked back cause we have that urge to do so, cause we thought we were right, we thought they don't understand us...

there's always those time when you want to go out and they say no straight away without mercy..

have we ever realize?

that our parents never hoped for any argument to happened?

all those talks they gave are for us to be better?

how hurt they felt when you look away cause what they hope for was for you to listen and to know what's best?

how sad they were cause they never taught you to be rude, where did you learnt that from??

that they know that you are not mature enough to go out on your own and they're scared that you'll get influenced by you friends?

maybe some of you did thought of all this reasons before..

i thought of it as well..

yet sometimes, i did neglect what my brain told me and i follow what my feelings asked me to do..

to be mad..

ego increased...

hatred occurred...

all the above feelings are mixed together..

how i'm ashamed...

how stupid i was...

all the sweat that runs through their body.... who is it for?
all the money the earned.. who is it for??
all the things they did... who is it for???

we sweat ourselves finishing all their money while they sweat working their ass off for us...

not all children are like what i mention now...
but don't deny that most of us are the same....
we disobey...

now we should start open or eyes wide..
notice them,
notice their silent tears,
notice how weak they have become,
notice that they held back how they felt thousand times more handling us with all our whines,
notice that we should now change for them...

its our turn to think of them now,
let them feel at ease..
for their sake...

do that if you really love them..

why we loved... we hurt... we fall... we rise.... and we love again..

its not always flowery when we're in a relationship with our love one..
we argue..
we laugh.
we cry..
we smile...
we share...
we fight..
and with this..
we cherish every moment that we share with them...
all the pain we've gone through because of them...
all the feeling we don't know exist has been discovered...

and when we start not appreciating that moments we had..
that's when we let go and we don't want to try anymore...
every beautiful moments has become our worst nightmares..
what was once cute has become so ugly we would scoop out our eyes just to not see them...
and what was once love... it turns to hatred...

the one who still wants to held on to that relationship will stand there hoping..
hoping that one day the love one will come back and hold that empty hand..
when we know that won't happen..
it leaves us with a broken heart..
hating what love has turned us to be...
wondering what less in us that they would want to leave...
we cry...
we remember...
we laugh..
we cry again...
and we try to forget everything...

we start finding new love...
hoping that maybe finally.. we'll find ourselves the right one..
the one who would still stand next to you when you push them away...
the one who would not only lend their shoulder, but if they could they'd give them to you just for your comfort when you're at your worst..
the one who will understand you craziness and still keeps up with you..
the one who won't take you for granted..
the one who sees you and only you when you're in a crowd of people..
the one who would make fun of you cause that's how close both of you are..
the one who got immune to you..
the one who would still proudly hold your hand when you look your very worst..
the one who would kiss you when you just woke up in the morning with your sliver..(ewww)

when we found that person..
we won't let them go anymore..
not again...

how?
lets get engaged..
hehehehehe

this is none sense in the end..
=="