what i knw about this "love" word today... only today... :)

this is not speaking from experience..
this is speaking from what i felt inside...
what really matter nw is what my heart want to let out..
i knw LOVE is not cruel...
i knw LOVE has more to it than how it is..
n i knw..
LOVE is everywhere and exist among every1 n evey human n every creature in this planet...
1 thing for sure..
MY LOVE FOR GOD N FAMILY IS TRUE..

what my feeling told me nw...
he said my believe in love has slowly fade..
cuz my heart say...
"love" in ur brain dictionary has changed..
it is not the old "love" that u believed in anymore...
the description of love in the brain dictionary states that ;
what lies between love is lie...
what believes shud been written in love is disloyalty...
what happiness which was said about love, it is actually sadness..
what craziness love cud make is actually uncontrol madness..

u deny it?

when we start this so called love..
we believe that this is a new start for us..
a new beginning of a new life..
we rely on our partner in giving us every single breath that we take...
we gave all our soul n heart, believing them to take good care of it...
we share all the secrets that even alien cud nver find out, knwing that we wud swallow the key just because the secret was ours...
we respect them cuz we knw they'd do the same to us..
believing that they'd turned into superman..
to protect our dignity... virginity... mentally.. physically...

when we feel this love we felt..
we're we ready for the outcome?
did we knw that what the turn out will be...


"i dont care about anything as long as i hav u!"
"i will never leave u cuz ur the beat of my heart"
"i promised u i'll protect u till my last breath"
 n the last but not least...
"i promise u that i'll make u as my wife n we will be togther forever.."

those phrases..
those phrases are like black ribbons with white printed words..
blind folded u..
leaving u blind with no stick to walk...
u believed...
loyal...
trust...
n love...

u dont mind what happnd to u...
cuz u thought it was because ur facing true love..
u thought its because thats how love shud be..
leaving u blind...
giving all ur trust for him...
u thought...
"i still hav his hand to held on to cuz i knw he will never leave me.."

but he didnt...

he left u...
for a glass of water cuz he was thirsty..
but who cares..
he didnt kept his promise didnt he..?
did he STAY BY UR SIDE TILL THE END?
he said he wud die for u but wait..
he's taking a break drinking water leaving u blind!
U DONT HAV A STICK RMMBER?
UR COUNTING ON HIM!
U BELIEVED HIM!!
U GAVE ALL UR FREAKING TRUST FOR HIM!!!!

so what nw?
haha i knw...

"its ok.. it was just because he's thirsty... he's ryte beside me nw.. thats what matters..."

ur blind folded and few girls past by..
u see what he's doing?

*wink at a girl RYTE INFRONT OF U but u WERE BLIND FOLDED..


"its okay.... he's a guy... thats what guys always do..."

this is where u had been fooled...
u knw what ur facing but u still want to face it..
u want him to see ur love for him..
u want him to knw no matter what.. u'r still gonna be with him..
be there for him...
die for him...
do anything for him...

this is where ur already become literally blind..
no need the blind fold anymore...
ur now standing on a quicksand...
waiting to die..
while he stand there looking at u sinking..
dying..
lifeless...

him..
he's smiling...

y did i say that?

who's the 1 that suppost to be the superman??
u or him?
ur backing up his dignity...
not saving his virginity but then..
u take care of him mentally n physically..
dont want him to be harm while u'd die for him...

thats when ur not safe anymore..
love is red ryte?
hahaha

yeah...
suits u when ur blood flown out from ur eyes..
ur mouth..
ur nose,,
when u were eaten by maggets.,.

y?
because u believe in love too much...
LOVE THAT U SEE?
ahhahaa

look again..
with 4D spec..

analys again...
go check thro alien techno...

think again..
u hav ur head..
dont use ur knee to think..
it doesnt work..

yeah.. thats what i knw bout love today...
:)
meaningless..

i only believe n 2 love that i knw will nver ever3 ditch me...
love for MY RELIGION.. MUSLIM..
n love for my FAMILY..

i believe in them...
if im a fool for that..
i dont mind..
cuz im a fool for my own blood n for my own GOD..

:))